what's up?

happy friday to all! it is a really really beautiful one today.
what's up?
well...finn is good. he is cute and B-A-D all at the same time. we love him, i LOVE him, shelly loves him. haha. he is learning to mind better everyday. i do not even think the doggie prozac might be necessary anymore.
shelly, is finding out on monday which neurosurgeon she will be seeing and what exactly the surgery entails. she knows that she does not want to live with this anymore. pills and electric like seizures coming from no where is not her thing. she refuses them, and i agree. NO ELECTRIC like shocks in the face for this family. go away!!!!!! :)
my family outside of shelly and finn are great! they always are. grandmommy is moving in with mom and michelle until she decides what do to. buy, rent, or even find a cool retirement place where she can dance the nights away with fellow friends she will meet.
me, well, i am doing good. i am temping and i think that is the best right now. i am starting school AGAIN in the spring, and wished that i had taken classes this fall. i received a nice little grant and hoping my aid will fare well also.
i am just a tad nervous when it comes to school. sometimes i even have dreams that i am back in high school or junior high and i can't get into my locker. that was so frustrating. these dreams even consist of me being in my mini skirt, aka, uniform, trying do some random routine and not doing the same thing everyone else is doing. i think i did that a few times. the sad thing is, in my dreams i am the age i am now, and you can only imagine how frightful that must look.
i loved school, but i was AWFUL in school. if it came to art, theater, or anything non academic i blew through it, but give me a math problem or a sentence breakdown in front of me i had -zero confidence. i tried everything in school and wasn't ashamed of it. art and theater one day and then turn around and enjoy cheering with my friends. it was the actual work that stumped me every time.
stopping at my associates has only gotten me so far and it is always a gnawing feeling for me to just finish! so...how do i know that i will actually be successful after many many attempts at this even up until recently?
i think you know when it is right. i think you know when you should just do it. i hear, that it is never too late and i truly believe that.
i have a great support group and i even have a tutor for math built in. her name is michelle and damn it if she isn't a math major. that one, she is a smarty pants, and i am so glad!
enough with the school of life, i have done it. i think it is time for just school. the school that helps with my mind and my personal growth as well as helping land a good job. ha.
i think the academic fairies are on my side this time. shake off the old art brushes and camera, because i am going.
academic fairies i hope you have a lot of fairy dust to sprinkle on me ~ because i think i will need it.